What am i doing here?

Elsewhere on this site, I have touched upon what this whole thing is about, but more specifically I think I should talk about why I’m writing a blog in the first place. I’m actually a rather private person and not one for wanting to be “out there” in the public eye.

At least, that is how I think of myself, and others usually do too.

However, I have taken the initiative of various leadership roles, especially as related to education activities in my school employment, and have actually performed in community theater acting roles like Fagin in Oliver! and Merlin in Camelot, and greatly enjoyed the experience. Moreover, my years of employment as a classroom school teacher demanded that I basically be “onstage” every day in front of hundreds of students as part of my role of encourager of learning, shall we say.

So, I guess the question could be asked, “If you say you’re a private person and yet you do nonprivate things—such as writing this public blog—then, what’s going on?” Yeah, good question. Believe me, I’ve given that question lots of thought over the years, and especially before launching into this website and blog venture.

Well, as I’ve detailed in my book and particularly the ending section on Utility, it’s all about control. Like every human being and every other living thing, everything we do is about control: whether simply to stay alive or (as in this blog entry) to try to figure out why we do what we do.

Before getting to this point, I had to examine a lot of factors about my personality and capabilities in order to understand my motivation for writing the book, and starting this website and blog. And of course, these are the factors of personal control mentioned in the book that any control situation needs to examine—what is trying to be controlled, who is involved, and why it is being done.

So, in the next post I will dig into that control issue about myself as an example of control principles discussed in the book. That may help illustrate the general drift of the blog for thinking about life. Practice what you preach, right?